Thoughts of Hope From a New Widow

Nearly four years after beginning my journey in Seminary it has come time to stand and preach my Senior Sermon at Drew Theological School in Madison NJ. Preparing for this day has been something of a roller coaster to say the least. The joy of falling in love during my first semester and the amazing love that relationship brought into my existence coupled with the nearly life ending pain of losing my husband less than eight months after our wedding have changed me in ways I cannot regret. To do it all again I would make the same decisions all over again.

To love is to risk and to live is to love, life is a terminal condition and no one leaves this life alive. If we are to fully embrace this one precious life we have we will risk the pain of grief by exposing our heart to love. It is simply the only way.

My Constant Companions
Thoughts of hope from a New Widow by Christine J Baxter

Sadness you don’t own me

        No matter how you try

Sorrow you cannot defeat me

        No matter how you try

Grief you will not drown me

        No matter how you try

Pain you will not kill me

        No matter how you try

Joy you live within me

        I welcome you in

Love you can flow through me

        I welcome you in

Peace you can surround me

        I welcome you in

Grace you may walk with me

        I welcome you in

Survival you have found me

        Because I welcomed you in.


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  1. Vonnie

    Brought tears to my eyes!!! So very, very touching and meaningful!!

    1. christinejbaxter

      Vonnie your friendship continues to bless me daily.

  2. Miranda

    You are a courageous woman who has embraced diversity, challenge and all that life has thrown at you with determination. That you are standing to deliver your senior sermon is a testimony to your strength and to the strength of your love for Don and for your God. May blessings in abundance follow you all the days of your life.

    1. christinejbaxter

      Thank you so much for your friendship and love. You are a treasure to me.

  3. Ruth

    Thank you, Christine for sharing your thoughtful and heartfelt words. May your constant companions be joy, love, peace, grace…and survival.

    1. christinejbaxter

      Ruth thank you so much for your support and encouragement. You inspire me!

  4. Rajadhas

    Dear friend, It’s a very touching statement in poetical mode. It reveals you. You are a wonderful person. You can welcome in FRIENDSHIP too.

    1. christinejbaxter

      Thank YOU my friend. I will indeed welcome in Friendship. I am thankful for your friendship.

  5. Chris Pierson

    Beautifully written Christine. Thank you!

    1. christinejbaxter

      Thank you for reading Chris. Blessings to you.

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