Tag: Prayer

Oct 27


I need to talk about my

A poem so true to my heart that if I had the eloquence to write as the author does I would feel truly gifted:

I need to talk about my loss. 
I may often need to tell you what happened-
or to ask you why it happened.
Each time I discuss my loss, I am helping myself
face the reality of the death of my loved one. 

I need to know that you care about me. 
I need to feel your touch, our hugs.
I need you just to be with me. 
(And I need to be with you.)
I need to know you believe in me and in my 
ability to get through my grief in my own way.
(And in my own time.)

Please don’t judge me now-
or think I’m behaving strangely.
Remember i’m grieving.
I may even be in shock.
I may feel afraid. I may feel deep rage. 
I may even feel guilty. But above all, I hurt. 
I’m experienceing a pain unlike any i’ve ever felt before. 

Don’t worry if you think i’m getting better
and then suddenly seem to slip backward.
Grief makes me behave this way at times. 
And please don’t tell me you “know how I feel,”
or that it’s time for me to get on with my life.
(I am probably already saying this to myself.)
What I need now is time to grieve and recover. 

Most of all, thank you for being my friend. 
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for helping, for understanding.
Thank you for praying for me. 
And remember, in the days or years ahead,
after your loss- when you need me
as I have needed you- I will understand.
And then I will come and be with you. 

~Barbara Hills LesStrang


Taken from The Afterloss Credo

From the Book Afterloss by Barbara Hills LesStrang


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Oct 31

I Am Still Me, and Yet, I am Not

I try to show the world that I am still myself, that I am okay, that I can still laugh and work and play and study, but I fail. I am not still the me I was. I won’t ever be that me again. That dreamy eyed newlywed basking in the glow of a love …

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Oct 01

In The Blink of an Eye

Now I lay me down to sleep I Pray the Lord my soul to keep If I die before I wake I Pray the Lord my soul to take. This is my earliest memory of prayer. Every night from the time I was old enough to speak I would pray this prayer. After the words …

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Oct 04

A fellow Drewid Shares His Ministry !

As a second year seminary student at the Drew Theological School, I am learning more and more each day about God, God’s love for us and for the world as well as God’s mercy and grace. My hope to continue to grow into the love that Christ offers and to share it with others in …

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Feb 26

Day 12, Vision

These photos show me placing ashes on the foreheads of students or staff members here at Drew I choose these photos for the word vision because my prayer is that they will represent a vision of future Ash Wednesday service that I will be able to hold as a Pastor myself.  by

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Feb 21


1 John 4:7-16 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV) God Is Love 7 Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God; everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love. 9 God’s love was revealed among us in this …

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Feb 19

Wonder Day Six

As I thought about the word WONDER the title of a song kept running through my head. I hope you enjoy I wonder as I wander out under the sky How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die For poor on’ry people like you and like I; I wonder as I wander out under …

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Nov 06

One Rope

This story comes to us courtesy of Insook Do who is an ordained Deacon in the United Methodist Church, serving in the Upper New York Annual Conference in the Albany District. Insook, for many years was an incredible Hospice Chaplin bringing joy to a place where little joy is found. Insook is now teaching and preaching …

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Oct 09


In Psalm 25 the Psalmist is praying for deliverance from enemies. Verses 4&5 read “Make me to know your ways, O LORD; teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth, and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all day long.”

For you I wait all day long! How many of us have waited for God for a day, a week, a year, a lifetime? I recently attended a seminar based on the book The Seven Spiritual Gifts of Waiting by Holly W. Whitcomb. It lists

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Oct 04

The Prayer of Examen

St. Ignatius Loyola (1491-1556), founder of the Society of Jesus, was a very practical man when it came to prayer. He recommended to his brothers a daily method of examining their lives so that they might better serve the Lord. St. Ignatius taught that the key to a healthy spirituality was twofold: Find God in …

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