Tag: mourning

Mar 21

New Hope New Spring

Today is the first full day of Spring. The sunshine coming in my window today reassured me that yesterday’s snowfall on the actual vernal equinox was just Winter’s last gasp and the crocus peeking out of the snow tell me I really can depend on Spring. Spring brings with it all kinds of wonderful blessings, warmer …

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Mar 11

423,000 Minutes

423,000 Minutes or more The internet is full of fascinating little things. One of the things you can find online is a date calculator. Don has been gone as of the beginning of this blog over 423,000 minutes. Aside from the very few minutes of sleep I get each day, because I cannot seem to …

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Feb 22

Nine Months Later…….What I Know Now

  It has been nine months since Donald left this world, leaving me to reflect on what I know now that I didn’t know nine months ago. Time does not heal all wounds. Some hurts are pain we will never “get over” and that is okay. Scars are left for a reason; they show how …

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Jan 29

How Can I Become

When someone loves you the way Don loved me, the way I loved Don, they see a part of you that you didn’t even know existed until you see yourself through their eyes. That is the way real love works. You can see yourself differently in the mirror because the person holding the mirror is …

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Jan 27

Why Can't Life Be Done

Many people might not understand that grief can be this painful, this lonely, this dark. I wrote this poem a while ago. It is not how I feel every day. It is how I felt that day. I share it so that others who feel this way on their darkest day know that they are …

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Jan 24

What is the span of a life?

I have talked about the Karner Blue Butterfly here before but I haven’t mentioned that one of the reasons they are so rare is because of their very short life span, between four and twenty-one days. That is all, three weeks on a good run and their beauty is gone. What is the span of a …

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Jan 07

2015

You have arrived but I am not happy to see you. You will be the first year without him You will be a year of change. You will be a year of growth. You might bring hope, I cannot see it yet. You might bring laughter, I cannot hear it yet. You might bring love, …

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Dec 31

Seven Months and Ten Days

We were married for seven months and ten days, you were taken from me just seven months and ten days ago. On this eve of the New Year the calendar still haunts me with coincidence. The pain is still as fresh today as it was that day in May. I look at the post I …

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Dec 28

Everyday

            Every day I think of you I dream of the days we shared We added up the moments To make a lifetime from just two years You fulfilled every promise You made every dream come true We always found the laughter even amid the tears We always knew it …

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Dec 26

Poetic Interlude

The poems below both speak to me when I think about Donald’s death. I want to scream the first poem and deny the second. In the first the poet is talking of his Father and in the second the poet speaks of Marc Anthony and his noble defeat. It strikes me that the first poet …

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