Aug 25

My Demons My Friends

An unlikely title, maybe, and then again maybe not. Demons, we all have them. You may call them insecurities, weaknesses, failings or shortcomings. Oh they can take many forms, self-hatred, self-doubt, perfectionism, impatience, and intolerance, many others to be sure. Then there are the other demons so many of us struggle with like depression, anxiety, addiction, and alcoholism. What are the personal demons that you struggle with every day? Where do they stem from? More importantly, where are they going?

How do we see our demons as our friends? Well, they are comfortable. If you are a perfectionist you can say “it is not good enough” and continue to beat yourself up about the quality of whatever “it” is. If you are filled with self-hatred you can easily deflect any compliment that might come your way by saying “oh they didn’t really mean that, they were just being nice.” Any challenge to our personal demons is a threat to us, a threat to the status quo.

C.S. Lewis describes many demons on his story of heaven and hell in The Great Divorce. One demon actually takes physical shape in the form of a lizard sitting on the ghost’s shoulder. An angel comes to the ghost and offers to get rid of the lizard sitting on his shoulder and the ghost is in agreement, until he realizes that the angel is intending to kill the lizard/demon. Then the ghost pleads to the angel to not kill it. Eventually after much back and forth the ghost allows the angel to kill the demon. After the demon is dead the angel throws it to the ground and it changes into a beautiful stallion, which the ghost then rides away on as the horse takes the ghost to heaven.

We can all probably identify with the ghost in that at first getting rid of our personal demons sounds like a fine idea but then we resist the very thing that can kill it. We have grown so comfortable living with our demons we do not know how to live without them. We cling to insecurities and addictions because it is all we know, they become part of how we identify ourselves.

How do we get rid these demons that torture us daily. Well I don’t have the answer to all of that. What I do know is that the first step is admitting to God that we need help. Not such an easy thing to do with our independent nature, but a necessary step towards healing none the less. By prayer we can bring our fears, insecurities and demons to God and rest in the assurance that God will be by our side as we separate from the demons that hold us back in a life filled with the joy and love of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

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3 comments

    • Deanne on August 25, 2010 at 1:58 pm
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    AMEN!

    • Deacon Ben on August 25, 2010 at 2:06 pm
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    I find that if I want to get rid of a shortcoming…I have to make sure I am not using it anymore. Then I ask God to remove it for today…just today. Nothing is bigger than God. He can take my demons. Good blog Christine.

    • Steve B on August 25, 2010 at 8:37 pm
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    One day at a time, eh? Excellent topic!

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